On a wing and a prayer

[the_baking_vampire]

This isn't the first charge he's ever had as a guardian angel, so it's not exactly as if he's new at his job. He's never broken the rules before or failed in his task. He's always followed strictly to the rules and protected his charges with the utmost care and diligence.

He never thought things would be so much different with John Grimm.

As a boy, he'd lost his parents, and Seere had been tasked to him without any real explanation of why. Sometimes, that's how it goes; an assignment without a reason. It's never bothered him. All he knew was that he needed to protect the boy, and by extension, that usually meant protecting his twin sister, as well, inseparable as they were.

For years, Seere watched him grow, a sad, shy, and reserved child who turned into a handsome young man.

It was difficult when John entered the military. Seere can't fix mental anguish. How does one protect against that sort of thing without keeping a soul from gaining the necessary experiences to benefit from having lived? So, he watches as John struggles through bootcamp, watches as he struggles with the deaths of his friends, with the guilt that comes with it. He wants to help, but there's nothing he can do. He can't protect everyone. Only John.

Seere is wary when John gets selected for the RRTS. It's such a dangerous squad. Protecting him becomes a full-time task, flitting in and out of John's vision, exploiting those fractional blind spots that all humans have to subtly change the trajectory of bullets or nudge him away from a falling object or protect him from an explosion.

During these years, he's grown closer to John. He knows he shouldn't get attached, but John is such a sweet, loyal person, Seere can't help but care for him. He's gentle and protects those around him, gives everything he's got to try to keep his friends safe. He's grown into a man that Seere is proud to watch over, even if it's become dangerous to do so. Angels aren't allowed to love.

Still, his job goes well up until John is in his 26th year -- and he suddenly disappears.

Seere tracks his last signature to the point where it disappeared. It's a portal to Mars. Seere knows this, but he can't go. He can't leave the sphere of influence that Angels have on Earth. He can't travel to Mars with him, can't protect him. For once in his eternal life, Seere is afraid he will fail. He's not afraid of the punishment for it, he's afraid for John.

So, he heads back to Heaven to wait, and never have two days seemed so long for someone with as much patience as he has.

As soon as John's familiar tug reappears on Earth, Seere seeks him out.

He finds him at the hospital, beside the bed of his sister, and he immediately looks the both of them over for injuries. John is perfectly healthy, as far as Seere can tell, but Sam seems as if she has been wounded. Not fatally so, thankfully.

He breathes out a sigh of relief. He is so glad to see his charge is safe.

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[beautifulanimal]

He reaches up to grab Seere's wrist and moves it so he can press little kisses to his fingertips. "I like that you call me that."

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere flushes happily, and for him, this is as intimate as he's ever been with anybody. Maybe sex is like this? If so, he could see why humans like it.

"I'll call you that as often as you want me to."

[beautifulanimal]

"Only as often as you feel like it."

He presses a kiss to his palm and then the inside of his wrist, then he braids their fingers together and moves to brush their lips together.

[the_baking_vampire]

Oh. Seere's never had a real kiss before.

He tangles their fingers more thoroughly and he tentatively returns that kiss. It's nice, actually, just a little spark of contentedness that rolls through him.

[beautifulanimal]

When Seere doesn't vanish, he deepens the kiss, but it's still no more than a soft press of lips. He's doing what he can to keep this chaste and appropriate.

[the_baking_vampire]

That's good because Seere wouldn't know what to do with anything more than chaste. He tries to go with what feels "natural", but he doesn't have much instinct when it comes to this sort of thing. At least he's comfortable enough to wrap his arm around John's waist.

[beautifulanimal]

John smiles against Seere's lips and moves his head down to gently lick and nip at the skin on his neck. That's as far as he'll take it.

"This is so nice."

[the_baking_vampire]

"I'm glad. Simply being like this with you fills me with happiness." He lifts his chin a little, a silent signal that John is welcome to do whatever he sees fit with him.

[beautifulanimal]

He doesn't do much more than linger on his skin and breathe him in. He still wants to touch him, but he doesn't. What he wants is the sex. Bodies connecting and pressing together. It's not really about Seere, so he doesn't feel right in using him. But staying close and snuggled against him, making Seere happy like this... that's different.

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere remains quiet for a while, just basking, just appreciating what he's being given.

After a while, he rouses from his blissful little coma. "How are you feeling?"

[beautifulanimal]

"Calm."

That's really the best he can hope for at the moment. Not panicking, not wanting to kill himself and everyone around is more than good enough.

[the_baking_vampire]

"Good." That's a definite improvement from how he was, so Seere isn't about to complain.

He does, however, want to sleep a little more, so he tucks John in with him and closes his eyes.

[beautifulanimal]

He moves closer against him, maybe selfishly stealing a press of hips in the process. He has no complaints against them sleeping a little. Not as long as it means he can stay wrapped up in the safety of Seere's wings.

[the_baking_vampire]

He sleeps until the next morning and he feels fairly rested when he wakes. He nuzzles at John, pressing a kiss to the top of his head to try to rouse him a little. He has things to do today, doesn't he?

[beautifulanimal]

Things? What things? John's not conscious of anything other than his dreams and the warm body he's pressed against.

[the_baking_vampire]

Well, that's alright. Seere will continue to hold him, warm and comfortable, until John decides to wake up on his own. There's no rush, after all.

[beautifulanimal]

He wakes up a little later, with a smile and a content exhale of breath. Seere really is better than any sleep drug that's out there. He automatically wraps a leg and an arm around him to press as close as he possibly can.

"Hey."

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere has always been aware, in a very scientific sense, that humans get erections in their sleep. It's exercise for their reproductive organs to ensure it works when it needs to.

But still, when there's an erection pressed right against him, it is slightly less scientific and somewhat more alarming. "Are you aroused?"

[beautifulanimal]

"Hmmm?"

He's busy nosing at Seere's neck when his brain catches up with him and he realizes that he's not only hard, but also kinda rocking against him.

"I'm sorry."

He'd move away, but now he's frozen. in. place.

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere's also frozen in place. John's wrapped around him and he doesn't want to just disappear on him like last time, but this is also somewhat uncomfortable because he has no idea what to do in situations like this. How is he supposed to respond? There's nothing in his angel handbook that has anything to do with being in a bed with an erection that's not even yours.

[beautifulanimal]

"I'msorry.I'msosorry."

Slowly, he peels himself off of Seere and moves to leave the bed. Hopefully escape to the bathroom to deal with this.

"I'm... Just give me a moment."

[the_baking_vampire]

"I could--" Seere bites at his lip, unsure. What he does know, though, is that he wants to help John, if he can.

"Just tell me what to do?"

[beautifulanimal]

"No. Absolutely not. I'm not using you like that. I'll take care of this on my own. Don't worry."

He goes to the bathroom and closes the door, but doesn't lock it. There's no point. He knows Seere can walk through it anyway.

[the_baking_vampire]

John told him not to, so Seere won't follow him in there. Instead, he'll do a little bit of cleaning in the house while he waits for John to finish correcting his erection, or whatever it is he needs to do with it.

[beautifulanimal]

John steps under the shower to do two things at once, but a few minutes later there's a "WHAT THE FUCK?!" echoing through the small apartment. Because John just came and his cock still won't go down. Halp.