On a wing and a prayer

[the_baking_vampire]

This isn't the first charge he's ever had as a guardian angel, so it's not exactly as if he's new at his job. He's never broken the rules before or failed in his task. He's always followed strictly to the rules and protected his charges with the utmost care and diligence.

He never thought things would be so much different with John Grimm.

As a boy, he'd lost his parents, and Seere had been tasked to him without any real explanation of why. Sometimes, that's how it goes; an assignment without a reason. It's never bothered him. All he knew was that he needed to protect the boy, and by extension, that usually meant protecting his twin sister, as well, inseparable as they were.

For years, Seere watched him grow, a sad, shy, and reserved child who turned into a handsome young man.

It was difficult when John entered the military. Seere can't fix mental anguish. How does one protect against that sort of thing without keeping a soul from gaining the necessary experiences to benefit from having lived? So, he watches as John struggles through bootcamp, watches as he struggles with the deaths of his friends, with the guilt that comes with it. He wants to help, but there's nothing he can do. He can't protect everyone. Only John.

Seere is wary when John gets selected for the RRTS. It's such a dangerous squad. Protecting him becomes a full-time task, flitting in and out of John's vision, exploiting those fractional blind spots that all humans have to subtly change the trajectory of bullets or nudge him away from a falling object or protect him from an explosion.

During these years, he's grown closer to John. He knows he shouldn't get attached, but John is such a sweet, loyal person, Seere can't help but care for him. He's gentle and protects those around him, gives everything he's got to try to keep his friends safe. He's grown into a man that Seere is proud to watch over, even if it's become dangerous to do so. Angels aren't allowed to love.

Still, his job goes well up until John is in his 26th year -- and he suddenly disappears.

Seere tracks his last signature to the point where it disappeared. It's a portal to Mars. Seere knows this, but he can't go. He can't leave the sphere of influence that Angels have on Earth. He can't travel to Mars with him, can't protect him. For once in his eternal life, Seere is afraid he will fail. He's not afraid of the punishment for it, he's afraid for John.

So, he heads back to Heaven to wait, and never have two days seemed so long for someone with as much patience as he has.

As soon as John's familiar tug reappears on Earth, Seere seeks him out.

He finds him at the hospital, beside the bed of his sister, and he immediately looks the both of them over for injuries. John is perfectly healthy, as far as Seere can tell, but Sam seems as if she has been wounded. Not fatally so, thankfully.

He breathes out a sigh of relief. He is so glad to see his charge is safe.

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[the_baking_vampire]

"Alright..." And excuse him if he's distracted enough to actually walk into the door before he remembers that wasn't how he got into the room in the first place and vanishes.

[beautifulanimal]

Oh, this is so fucking humiliating. He doesn't even notice that Seere crashes in the door. He's a little distracted.

... and almost an hour later, he's still in there trying to deal with this. He's sure that if his skin could get sore, his cock would have been rubbed raw by now.

[the_baking_vampire]

Eventually Seere comes back to knock on the bathroom door. "John? Are you alright?"

[beautifulanimal]

"Ithinkmaybeweshouldtrythehealingthing."

[the_baking_vampire]

He opens the door and steps inside. "Okay. We'll give that a try. Do you want to stay in here or come into the bedroom?"

[beautifulanimal]

"Gimme a towel?"

He'd get one himself, but then he'd have to face Seere and no. That ain't happening. His cock does NOT look human right now and it's fucking scary and it's best if no one ever saw that.

[the_baking_vampire]

He pulls a towel from the rack and he gives John the benefit of turning away from him and closing his eyes when he hands it over. "Here."

[beautifulanimal]

He takes the towel with a muttered 'thanks' and wraps it tightly around his waist. There's a wince of pain because the towel is rough against that hypersensitive skin, and it hides NOTHING because he is tenting so bad that it's comical, but at least it preserves some sense of modesty between them.

"How do we do this?"

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere holds his hand out to him now that John's (somewhat) proper. "Come on, love. I'll take care of you."

[beautifulanimal]

John looks like a kicked puppy. He's soaking wet, too, so he kinda looks like a puppy someone drop kicked into a pool or something. He reaches out to take Seere's hand and will let him take the lead.

"Okay."

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere leads him into the bedroom and guides him to sit down on the bed. Seere crawls into the bed behind him, kneeling, and he wraps his arms around John in what he hopes is a comforting hug. "Relax," he says, and then he starts the healing, letting his grace pass into John and seek out whatever it is that ails him.

[beautifulanimal]

It is comforting. He leans back and reaches up to run his hand through Seere's hair His head turns a little so he can breathe him in. It's not that something ails him. It's just that he doesn't know how to control it, how to turn it off and distract himself. He doesn't know how to satisfy this new body.

But that warmth that is coming from Seere... that does feel good. It's soothing.

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere can't actually find anything wrong with John, aside from the fact that his hormones are a little high. He can tell that just being here is helping to calm John down, though, so he'll stay right there and hold him, hoping that the problem will resolve itself in time.

Sometimes, patience is the only thing that will solve a problem.

[beautifulanimal]

It's not easy at first. Seere's scent is making it worse and his hips twitch carefully now and then, as if seeking out some phantom friction. The urge to reach down and touch himself while Seere is holding him is so damn strong that it might even penetrate the light connection between them. But he holds back and eventually, that calm spreads through him enough that he finally starts going soft.

[the_baking_vampire]

"That's good, love," Seere urges, nuzzling their cheeks together. "You're doing well."

Seere doesn't know if this sort of thing will be normal for John from now on, or if it was a one-time occurrence. It's certainly, erm, interesting, though.

[beautifulanimal]

He moves a little to kiss his cheek. "I'm sorry for putting this on you. I promise it won't happen again."

He can't really make that promise, but he'll do everything in his power to avoid it. He'll just be a monk. Yes.

[the_baking_vampire]

"You don't have to be ashamed," Seere replies, just as calm as ever. "It's a natural thing."

For humans, yes.

[beautifulanimal]

"I've never had this problem before. Usually, I cum and things are normal. Now it was like... like my cock was starving."

He's still ashamed. Doesn't matter how many times Seere tells him he shouldn't be.

[the_baking_vampire]

"Perhaps your endurance has increased? It does seems you've gained a lot of other advantages lately."

Still, he blushes at the vulgar terminology. Angels don't say "cock". Angels have their own word for it. It's much more elegant in Enochian.

[beautifulanimal]

"That's going to be such a fucking problem. The last thing I need is a sex drive that's over 9000. I can't spend all day jerking off."

But he smiles despite that. "You're so cute when you blush."

[the_baking_vampire]

Seere isn't sure how to deal with that kind of a problem, but he does think that they'll manage to find a solution somehow. "You will learn to control it."

Oh, so John noticed his blush. That makes him blush a little deeper. "If you say so."

[beautifulanimal]

"I have no choice. It's either that or some chemical castration-" How sad is it that the thought actually gives him half an idea? "Hey. Would you be capable of shutting things down somehow? Just temporarily or something."

[the_baking_vampire]

"John," Seere soothes, pressing a gentle kiss to his cheek. "Is it not better to try to control it without the use of drugs? I have faith in you. You're still adapting to these changes. You will master them in time."

[beautifulanimal]

"I'm not talking drugs. I was thinking maybe you can put some sort of binding thing on it? So you don't have to worry about waking up with me rutting against you again?"

[the_baking_vampire]

He shakes his head. "I don't have the ability to do that. I'm sorry.